lollll this is from my other tumblr
i need her and it sucks. cause were friends, so i should be pretending like everything is okay. but i wont. because i love her and maybe we werent official but this is just like a breakup. nothing makes me happy now. since wednesday afternoon i’ve been faking smiles and trying so hard to laugh. not that i didnt before, but before i was even happier than this. i just want to be okay but i cant.
in ways it feels like im breaking up from my friends too. tonight theres this dinnner. and were friends with the same people, so of course shell be there. with her new ‘boyfriend’ and uhg i dont even know if ill go. ill just be depressed the whole time, but i wanna try.
